I love Seth, I love Seth, I love Seth. I have loved Seth since he was very young. I am not going to fool you that it was love at first sight or anything like that. Seth was a difficult baby, it took a while for him to warm up to me and for me to warm up to him if I am being honest. There were some fights that I am not proud of that happened when he was 4 or 5, where he and I would just yell at each other in the middle of the night because he wanted to sleep in bed with me and Adam and I wanted him to sleep in his own bed. It took a while but now I can honestly say that I couldn't love Seth more even if I had given birth to him. He is 100% my kid, he is Adam and Lilith's child, loves them both very much and they love him but I am firm believer that the more you divide love the more it multiples. Since I have been around since Seth was so young I am just a third parent in his life, after I had Lulu I realized that I did in fact love him the same as I loved her. With Lulu I had 9 months to adjust to her and then 3 hormone driven months where I fell madly in love with her. With Seth I didn't have that, our love grew over the last 10 years, it hasn't always been easy but it is true.
So with saying that can I now admit that sometimes I don't like Seth right now? Remember I said he was a difficult toddler? I have this theory about teenagers and toddlers basically being the same mentally. They are learning that they are independent people, testing their boundaries, discovering themselves, growing at such fast rates, eating constantly and throwing fits when they don't get what they want.
We have hit puberty with Seth and while it has just started, I can already see a few difficult years ahead of us. Sometimes he is still the sweet kid I adore and other times he is an overgrown version of his toddler self. Teenage boys are difficult. Thy are inconsiderate, smelly, self absorbed, selfish, messy creatures that will attempt to eat you out of house and home. Their immature sense of humor is all that keeps me from waging war on them as a species.
Not that preteen/teen girls are better, it's just that I was a teenage girl so I understand what's going on in their brains whereas I have no clue about the inner workings of teenage boys. They strut around like peacocks and think they know it all. They are never wrong and it is always an excuse when something happens.
It gets better right? I will survive the next 5 years until Seth turns 17 an regains some use of his brain right?
